At loss for words

I've been thinking about this for awhile, and wonder how can one be there for their friend in tough times? It's like an impossible mission because at that time, everything one may know about the person, isn't the same person any more.

It actually hurts to see how our friend go through this in life and it pains us even more that there's really nothing we can do about it. Now that I'm at the other side of the door, I understand what is it like to be at loss for words.

Back to 2 - 3 years ago, I was the one going through a tough time (minor tough time) and there was a particular friend who only said, "Cheer up, I'm here if you need me." when I told that person about it. At first, I was quite piss and disappointed. It seems as if one didn't really bothered about it but now, maybe I was wrong. Maybe one thought it was the best to let me have my time and when I'm willing to talk, one'll be there.

I wish now that I didn't say things then because it was all a misunderstanding and now, it could be the caused of broken friendships. I'm sorry that I wasn't more mature then. That "tough time" wasn't really a big of deal now either. Lesson learned: If it wouldn't matter in 10 years time, it shouldn't matter now - need to really get this in my head.

Although, I'm glad that situation happened. If not, I wouldn't have thought about it and try to approach things differently now. Thankful for one of my friend too, that helped me realised there are other ways to be there for your friend.

The main reason for this post is that I want to express to my friend that's going through a tough time right now. I want to say that I'm here for you and if you need me, just call me. I hope that you would understand, I'm at loss for words, not that I'm not bothered. Words can't express how glad I am that I was able to get to you today and bother you with bits of my life, hopefully I can continue to do that without annoying you.

signing off, xx.